Dog tags and clean boxers

Yesterday came and went, it was my first day home all day since he left. It was nice and lonely at the same time. I am so glad I was blessed with Savannah, she definitely kept me on my toes EVEN when she was screaming for hours because she is getting more teeth. I love her! She is my everything and the reason I wake up in the mornings. Candice came over last night. I love her! I have spend almost everyday with her since the guys left. She found out at the beginning of the week that she was pregnant and I couldn't be happier for her! She has tried so hard and finally it paid off! I can't wait to become "Aunt Jennifer" to her third lil one. We decided that I am going to go with her to her appointments and take pictures and video to send to her husband. While Candice was over here, she was joking around saying that Mike was online. My heart dropped, but then she told me she was just kidding! I like to have chocked her! Finally, as I was making us food (hot dogs), she said it again. I didn't believe her and as she continued to say it and get louder, I finally walked over there and saw that she was telling the truth. He was online and had IMed me!!! The first thing he said was "Short one are you there?" I was in heaven for those 10 to 15 minutes I got to talk to him. It wasn't over the phone or webcam but its better then nothing.


I stayed in all day today too, the weather was suppose to be bad, from what it looks like now, I could have done something!! It doesn't seem that bad right now, just a bunch of rain. Being from Texas, I can drive in it easy! I have been sleeping in Mike's boxers, not the dirty ones! It makes me feel like I can be close to him even though he is a million miles away. I also still haven't taken off his dog tags and probably won't until he comes home! I found another pair and put it hanging in the truck from the mirror.

4 days and a phone call! =]

Hubby has been gone for 4 days, but it seems like forever! I finally got to talk to him for 20 minutes last night! Made my day! I missed hearing his voice! He said that he was thinking that deployment could only be 10 to 11 months. I'm hoping for sooner not later! All I can hope for is the best. Man! I miss him. I am doing alot better then I was when he first left. I guess I'll keep getting better and easier as the day gets closer and closer to my love coming home. Boy, could I have used him for his snow driving abilities last night! I was on my way home from Candice's and the weather was pure insanity. You could barely see and then some spots you couldn't see anything. But thankfully I made it home safely. Driving 10 miles! The dogs are digging it though. They don't wanna come in from the back yard.

Day number 2 that Savannah has taken off her diaper in the morning! Man! She should have waited for her daddy to get home! But he will be soon enough.

There is still alot to do with the house, I still have some unpacking to do and then tape and paint.

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The day came and went so damn fast, I hate how my good bye went! I was made to leave earlier then some of the wives and really didnt get the family alone time I wanted! I have to wait till R&R for that. I cried so hard yesterday. Savannah looks just like him and it kills me. When she says "dada".... I just want to cry more, when she tries to walk, I feel like breaking down. All this stress is adding up and its breaking me down. I just want to sleep and then wake up and he is home!!!! I gotta stay strong for him and my baby girl though.

ITS HERE

The long awaited D-day has finally arrived. Today has been a mad rush to finish things that haven't even been started. There is soooo much more stuff that has to be done after he leaves. Stressful would be the word I am looking for. Thankfully, I have amazing friends that are here with me and will help me with anything and everything!!!! I am not exactly sure how I am going to react to knowing that he is gone.... for a year or more. I do know that I have ALOT of house projects that need to be done, I have decided that I want to learn a language. What?! I don't know yet? Maybe try Spanish again. I took it for 3 years in high school but seemed to have forgotten most of it... or maybe German, or Italian?! Just something to keep me busy and make this year go by extremely fast. Little Savannah isn't going to be little when he comes back! What a shock that will be! Everything is going to be different!!!

MOVING DAY TOMORROW!!!!

TOMORROW is the BIG day! We get to move into our home! We sign the papers at 2 pm but prior to that, Mike has to work.. meaning all the LOVELY packing is left up to me. I am so excited to finally OWN a home! I feel all grown up inside! hehe! Although, it won't really feel like home until Mike returns from his second tour. With all this awesome news, soon comes sadness, anger and the feeling of being alone. Mike leaves this weekend, so its going to feel like a piece of me is being ripped away. In reality, it really is... Duty calls, its his job. I made this choice to fall in love and marry a guy in the army. I knew that one of these days, the "D" word would come, but not knowing when was always in the back of my mind and always will be..

Packing

He is packing up his gear for Iraq. The "Army room" is what we use to call our guest room.. No longer looks like it use to. Nothing is in it anymore, and its kinda weird to look at. By this time next week, my husband will be thousands of miles away from us. Reality is hitting me, I don't know if I am going to hold back the tears when we are saying our final good byes or if I am going to stay strong and hard from him and my daughter. He has been checking the web for news about the place where he is suppose to be going, I try not to look or listen to him reading it. I have told him a million times that I WILL NOT listen or watch the news. I would rather not worry myself to death about whats going on.

16 days

Deployment is coming faster then ever! 16 more days. Can time please stand still for like 2 seconds? There is so much happening right now, I can't seem to get a break. Moving into a huge house in a new area 6 days before Mike deploys scares me. Him deploying scares me. I know that he has done it before, but I haven't. I am scared shitless. I know that I will make it, Obviously! I am strong enough to. But that doesn't mean that I don't need a box of tissue or a few months to get use to him being gone.